Yes... Today was the last normal day of school... the last day I'll be carrying my bag full of books into that building again... the last time I'll be having lessons with my friends, the last time I'll be coming in the morning and leaving at 2 pm. The last time I wear this uniform!!!...
The last time I have to abide by certain school rules! ... it's the last breath of youth I have left...
now... I just feel different... and the difference I feel does not provide me with a peaceful state of mind...
Usually in school I knew the way I was to follow... simply cuz my job was to pass classes to reach where I am now!... and now that I've reached this stage... the road suddenly splits into several pathways I find hard to choose from.
I confess I am TERRIBLE in knowing my way... :(... I confess even more, I'm terrible in considering what others have to say about my way. So here I am... and for once, I don't want opinions or advices or lectures... I want information... I want to know where I stand now and what I'm supposed to do exactly... I want this laziness in me to go away and push me to figure out what I need to know to make my decisions and suit myself... I feel like a little chick trying to break off that egg-shell... the chances of it breaking depends on how much force the chick exerts on it... the force here would be reperesented by marks... the more marks I collect the greater the force there would be for me to break that shell... but breaking that shell would also mean a lot more... it would mean more challenging battles to fight regarding more difficult issues... that's when I remember some people saying... "I wish that having to study was the only problem I had"... making known that studying was supposed to be the least of problems... now I understand what they mean... and though I dread the future and the possibility of its outcome... I can just hope for the best and dwell on past memories I can cherish :)...
may all those who pass through the same stage next year find their way with less struggles and more achievements :)... cheers to everyone... and happy end of school day!!...
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its been ten years since i graduated from high school and i feel like i have forgotten what i felt..but i can tell you that uni years will probably be the best years of ur life in terms of getting to know urself and ur freedom and ur abilities,,
then unless u are ur own boss you will go back to this restricted working environment where u have ur time in and time out and the monitoring again !!
so good luck !
a positive feedback on uni makes me feel a lot better...
then the positive thing about work though you have to abide by your boss's rules is you get paid for it :p ... hope you're enjoying it there.
However, Thanks and welcome Mystique ... glad to see you here.
sure thing :)
thanx for passing by psycho.
God I forgot how to be in school
lol... then I'm glad to have reminded you :p :p
Welcome back Nasra :)
12 years or more of school and it all comes down to "one" day. We always think rockets or flares will go off and this will be so different than other days. Graduation is really anti-climatic and can be depressing. Your life as it was has changed forever.
But don't fret TTT you are starting a new phase. It can be as good or bad as "you" make it from here on out.
Your smart and I'm sure very attractive ... you'll do fine.
Thanx a million Jack.... I'm happy to go further and experience some change... perhaps just a bit frightened what the future holds for me, but with all the inspirations you all give I'll manage to face it :)...
so thanx :D... no worries
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