Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy New Year



I was playing around with photoshop... until I spoiled the whole design I made for new year :os... nevertheless I'd like to wish everyone a Happy New Year...

This year has been the most interesting for me... it is the year I first got back to drawing and writing poems... the year I performed my final play and the year I first joined an english forum. Also the year I received the first copy of my book... and what else?... The year I met a number of interesting and intelligent people I am more than happy to have come across...

it may've also been a pain in the a**... but my gain outweighs my loss and I would not have had it otherwise... so happy new year to everyone and inshalla next year'll be a better one...

Best wishes,
Tee

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Tagged! (Desktop Image)

Been tagged by dear Nabs and Violet :



I've had this wallpaper for quite a while now... I just love the graphics... oh well...

I tag:

SteLLa (if she sees it :p)

Below My Expectations...

No... I won't complain... lol.. I know I may've made loads of mistakes along the way, but I also know myself well enough to conclude that even without those mistakes the results would've been the same... I've been through four mock exams now and I must say so far I am not satisfied... I know many would say it is simply because I don't study... but unfortunately I figured lately that it is more than just that since I spent more than 7 hours yesterday studying only one subject and yet today I feel my performance did not meet up to my expectations... so at the moment I am very dissapointed with myself and feel kind of lost... it is the effect of expecting something to be difficult when it's supposed to be easy... the look of all the things I have to catch up with made me lose confidance in believing that I'll manage to go through it all... I guess I do need tutors after all... lol

Sunday, December 25, 2005

The Night



A little girl holdin a teddy bear looking out of the window before going to bed... Jay... reminds me a lot of Marlene in "The Exes"... whatcha think?... I half- had her in mind... oh well...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Deep Under


To trapped creatures, ignorance is bliss...
somethin I've done a few days ago... had difficulties with it... not that satisfied but well... hope it serves anyway :)

Friday, December 16, 2005

Can it be??

When I was surfing the net I decided to look for a better blog address with tripletee only... knowing it didn't work previously that must've suggested that someone already had a blog with that address... and when I checked it... this is what I found : :os..

http://tripletee.blogspot.com

... I must admit it shocked me a bit... I don't really know what to make of it or if it's just coincidence...Jay was also mentioned there... I was thinkin how many tripletees know Jays??... nevertheless I found it interesting and quite clear someone was bored out of his/her mind and had nothin better to do... though it cracked me and Jay up a bit and got me quite curious, but oh well... no big deal I guess...

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Don't Cry...



This is a bit more simple... does resemble something :p... however, regarding the drawing, it was only the positioning of the characters that I always found a bit challenging... the rest just went with the flow... somehow goin back to my familliar style :os...

Friday, December 09, 2005

Testing...

ok... I decided to experiment a little... this drawing took me around 20 mins...



The original... scanned, only I didn't exactly know how to take the scanning effect out ...oh well....


Used Threshold in photoshop for this one... well it looked interesting to me... reminded me of the comics i see in newspapers....



Inverted the colors and liked the outcome...

It was all practice... guess I've still much to learn...:p

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Lost Memories

A moment of sadness inspired this poem... I dedicate it's morals to my friend (Princess) at this present situation... (I hope you're doing well and in good health... ) ...
It says:

There's been a time when I would walk
Concealing thoughts I've held along
Then hearing voices tell and talk
Of memories, and talk for long

Recalling days of lasting youth
Or laughing faces singing songs
If one would try to see the truth
That day would fade where it belongs

The past it goes and here remains
The fragments of a lasting thought
Of memories that cause restrains
Or tears to flow for times I sought

Moments that would not return
Nor stay the same throughout our lives
Times will change and cause concern
No matter how a person strives

So still I walk not looking back
Or thinking of what happened last
I know I can't retrace my track
It's all just stories of the past

It is what either of us wish to do, though we know it's not as easy as it sounds... yet remember this... it was never your fault Princess... and I hope you get over it one day...

If ever there was a friend to recall, I wouldn't think twice... if it weren't for the present situation I'd fight every chance to see you again... let others scream before they know the true meaning of friendship... but never has anyone gone through what you have for me... and I thank you all the more for it... sorry to have been such a pain in the ass :D... you know me even more than myself...

on an extra notice: I am very proud to hear your ambitions in life and how much we have in common... wherever you got that inspiration from, I would be more than delighted to watch you follow it up to success... your ideas prove you capable and I believe every bit in you. Despite all the ordeals you encounter your persistance amazes me... you deserve every merit for being the friend you are... and I hope that one day I could give it to you...thanx

Love, Tee

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Announcement!



Finally!!! My 59 copies of "The Exes" arrived early this morning! :D... It takes BookSurge ages to send them for some reason... but that doesn't matter now...

I can finally carry on with the next step, after making a pat with them owners the book'll be available in Oman's bookshops soon enough insha2 allah! :) :)

( The pic was taken through my webcam... Excuse the low resolution.. )

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Dangerous!



Result of a bad mood... I just had to put the image I had in mind on the paper... I wish it were easier though, lol... well this one took me quite a while... approx. 2 hours... drawn by pencil, outlined by ink then colored using watercolors... it might not be the exact image I wished for... but it comes close enough.... hope you like it :)

Friday, December 02, 2005

A Question Of Life

I've had the urge to post this for a while and decided to do so just as a matter of thought... I've had a question in mind... A topic that might turn your brains in circles... but I will try to bring it together as much as I can...
a discussion with an athiest (someone who doesn't believe in god's existance)... yet someone I was willing to learn more about seeing that he/she has lived in a believer's environment most of his/her life, and yet chose to follow their own ways. I've been faced with questions here and there which I trust no religious believer ever had the guts to discuss... yet I found it extremely vital to take their doubts into consideration if one is to look at life from a different prospective... look at what you see rather than what you're told to see...
So to begin with... I'll write it as it was said...

3T: so what's your belief?

?: I have none,

3T: howcome?

?: nothing has been proven, for me to believe in...

3T: What exactly has not been proven?

?: any belief you're referring to.

3T: What of the Holy Books?

?: what of them?

3T: do they prove nothing to you?

?: what do they prove to you?

3T: Perhaps that god exists...

?: and how exactly did you come to that conclusion?

3T: due to the truthfulness of what they reveal...

?: ...what is it u're referring to as true??

3T: about life... certain things that's not likely for a human to know in the time it was written.

?: yes, that is if it was indeed written during that time and if it was somethin that could never have been known as u presume...

3T: what do you mean to say? ... that you believe it may've been written later or changed? Or that such things that require modern knowledge could've been known previously?

?: I believe in neither 3t, I am merely claiming that either one is possible... and whatever is written whether changed or not is written words by human hand... all these doubts pile up and lead to the other... ofcourse not all that is written is false... nor all that is written I would take for granted...

3T: so saying what u said.... what do you make of life exactly? ...elaborate....

?: I may give you reasons ... but one will have to look at life more realisticly to understand what I'm talking about... you cannot simply make up reasons of why we exist just for the sake of having a reason...
science was made to give us facts of how things happen and religion was made to explain why things happen... all no doubt have a purpose... they're related... but one is more valid than the other... beliefs in religion differ in one region to the other... science is only one and factual... religion was no doubt made to help people during their time because people long ago didn't live the life we're living now... through the hardships they've gone through they needed something to believe in... something to keep them going.... something to hold on to... thus different religions were made to serve their own purposes...
if I had lived during these days I might've believed in them...
Do not get me wrong... u've no idea how much I would love for someone to come up to me and prove that certain beliefs are true, whether it was Islam, Christianity or any other...
there are a very few who would open their eyes and see life for what it is rather than follow what they're told without the slightest clue despite all their doubts. It is a question of life itself... I may've had a bit of thought in it... and if I said I believed in god it wouldn't be in the same way you do... since I do not take god as a person. I would refer to him as the essence of life if I were to relate to science... it is what life started with... presumably energy... since it could never be made nor broken... but if you refer to him as a person who wants to be worshiped by his creations and sends them to either hell or heaven... I do not see the reason nor the purpose behind it...
but I am sure none of what I doubt could be answered by any human in this lifetime... and the answer "god knows" would be empty to me...
so there you know my views... u are free to believe in what u will... nothing you say can convince me... nor prove your theories right... it will more likely cause confliction and where due to differences as it has been goin on for years...
But this is how I see it.. all to his own...

(I do not know what argument would change the person's mind nor convince him/her that he/she's wrong.. but it is interesting to see how people think and how others would answer to it... )

it is but a question of life and a doubt that is difficult to answer... may anyone who is able to clarify do so... I highly regard such people who struggle to find the true meaning of life rather than follow blindly... they would be the true believers since they are waiting to be convinced and don't simply pretend to believe in what they don't...


Thursday, December 01, 2005

Daydreamer



I was in the mood to draw something more relaxing... it always has to be a woman in the end :p... don't ask why... it's just a random outcome... nothing special to say about it... drawn by pencil and outlined by ink... well, hope you like it anyway :)...