Myself; Yourself

I just like this song... don't ask why. So I'm just gonna post it here.

Let bygones be bygones?

I went through a hell lot of embarrassing moments that made me feel like a loser in the past year. I had no idea I suffered from a low self-esteem until I experienced them. You know when you feel like the earth should barry and hide you from the world's eyes. So what now?... I don't feel ready to come out and forget about it. But I can't hide in here forever, can I?... XD...

What about those I embarrassed myself in front of? I know I can't please the world but... I keep getting an urge to one up them. My friends told me this competitive ego could turn into an obsession. And that I was selfish for not letting it go and moving on.
Really?
Perhaps...
Or perhaps this is just who I am.
I can go on pretending it doesn't matter to me... but I know the wheels in my head are still stubbornly turning. >.> It's like a burning fiery monster...
It keeps telling me, make yourself better and laugh at their faces. Is that really bad?

Not really... I think I'll rather enjoy it.
:)
But until I get that self-esteem back... I'll be hiding here XD *embarrassed smile*

Know what I'm talking about? *scratches head*
hehe...

The Novelist's Tohru- coloured

This image was sketched by the Non-crowned Princess (here) in her blog and I felt like coloring it in since I liked the simple lines.

For the record Princess... the sketch itself was traced and I slightly changed a few angles and measurements for accuracy. I hope you don't mind.

Original Sketch

Traced

Coloured




BG Added

Of course the BG could be a lot better but I'm not fond of spending too much time on one thing.

What say you? Look anything like Tohru? :p
Hope you like it :)

I Will Get There...

An example of a heroine with stern eyes. One who never shed a tear in her endeavors. She still reaches out to her intended goal though it appears far out of her reach. Her torn clothes and worn out state of mind do not seem to affect her determination. Though she doubts she will get there, she still has a longing to do so. And this hand gesture and gaze mean that even though the chances are not in her favor, for some reason, the candle of hope still burns in her chest, making her determined not to give up.
"I will eventually reach you... One way or another..."

I was lucky to draw this expression... the sketch probably portrays her personality better because the coloring of the finished artwork is simple.
But it's the look on her face that I wanted to pass. They say actions speak louder than words...
This girl represented all the words I had in mind.

I Hate the Farm!

I literally despise our farm... I am tired of having to pretend that I like it just to spare my parents' feelings. My dad precisely since he worked hard on it. I hate it because I'm always forced to go there even though I so badly want to return to the city. I am not a country girl and I am not old enough to retire and settle down with the cows, goats and camels. And what more... I am not even going to inherit this place if my dad passed away. Someone please tell me what the point is.

This is HIS thing... not mine... HE's the one enjoying it, not me. Most of the times I've nothing to do there. Now again I'm being forced to go there and sit around... I'm in the car going there as I write here. I am that pissed I had to let it out somewhere.........
bugger....

Luck Does Not Exist?

So apparently I hear luck does not exist. I'm curious to hear people's opinions on this. There was a discussion in the girl's dorm on whether there was such a thing as luck or not. I was completely with the fact that a person could get lucky and a friend retaliated with the fact that whatever happens happens due to coincidence, not luck. It was a very confusing discussion. Then another suggested for the word luck to be defined and I defined it as.

*Something good that happens that does not usually happen or that has a small chance of happening*

So what about the lottery? If I won a car tomorrow... I'd be considered lucky... others did not agree... they said it was coincidence... not luck. Because if a person bought 10 tickets and another bought 1 it's not necessary that the one who got 10 would win. He just has a higher chance of winning. I did not understand how that statement negates the existence of luck exactly. Cuz to me the person who gets the ticket in the end is the one who got lucky no matter how many tickets he bought.

I got torn in between and wasn't able to decide yesterday though.

However, I decided today that I still believe in luck. I believe luck exists because I am not the only one living on earth. There are other people as well. Which means I do not have power over everything... and the things I don't have power over... could either go with or against me according to how lucky I would get. (which means how many things would go with or against me) Luck does not label a person as a fortunate or unfortunate fellow. It's not a supernatural power... it's merely the definition above. And to me, the definition above DOES exist. If something good happens to you that does not usually happen it means you got lucky.
I believe yesterday's confusion was due to the wrong definition or interpretation of luck.
So I'll just agree to disagree.

What do you think?

Come for Auditions

So we're setting up a poster to announce the timings of auditions for several plays. My friend came up with Sam says... I want you. All that came up in my mind after that was a witch pointing and staring. So I drew the adorable lady down here.


sketch

^The sketch is up there if you're interested.

She says, 'we'll be waiting for you'...

so what do you think?
would she make you want to come for auditions? :p